Greetings
Much of what
we talk about in coaching is action — action based on some new awareness that
develops out of the process of being coached.
We can have
insights up the yin-yang, but unless and until we take action based on those
insights, our life does not change. Understanding is the booby prize. It avails
us nothing until we take action.
Being
wishy-washy about what you want produces wishy-washy results. The
Universe/God/Spirit doesn’t know what to give us when we keep changing our
minds.
Last month I
wrote about the nudges I was getting that it was time for me to move.
Since then
another powerful nudge occurred. I’ve never experienced this phenomenon as
dramatically as I am now experiencing it. The Universe (God) will no longer let
me compromise what’s best for me.
When I
returned from Paris last September and walked into my apartment, I had the urge
to get a dump truck and haul everything away.
Since then
I’ve been slowly letting go of old journals and sentimental items that reflect
years of suffering. It’s hard to part with these things. As hard as it is to
say, I have an emotional attachment to the pain.
The last
reason I had to stay in my current neighborhood was taken away from me last
Sunday. I was out for my daily walk and saw a fire truck by my yoga studio. The
studio had burned an hour earlier.
Trees are
falling in my front yard (see photo above) and yoga studios are burning. Things
are getting dramatic.
I told my
coach I was not going to be in a hurry to move because the idea of moving was
increasing my stress level so much. I felt that she wanted me to continue to
take action but I assured her that I had to back off for a while and ease
through my emotions.
When I did,
I was able to take more actions to find a place.
On Saturday,
January 20th, I found my new home. I knew it the minute I walked into the place.
I felt the gut response that said yes. I am happy and scared.
My rent will
be more, I’ll have less storage space, but I’ll have so much more light, which
is what I’m hungry for. A smaller place will force me to let go of all the
emotional attachments to the past. To shred them, burn them, and give them away.
They are not who I am anymore. I am lighter, figuratively and
metaphorically.
